whole day out

lovesick











not getting used to all the things, lovesick had already intruded my body.
i dont know since when it does, but the feeling is terrible.
yesterday my mum and ahyi brought me out for shopping.
went to my great grandma's place, followed by lotus restaurant,
thn city square mall thn to iluma.
so many place to shop, and i bought many things too.
we also went to watch 'avatar' at night.
oh, this show is nice, i really like it.
but the show is 2 hours plus -.-
but its worth it (:
although i had a fun day yesterday, and i know they are trying to cure my lovesickness,
but i cant stop thinking of him, tht strong magnetic force keep pulling me.
i keep thinking, when is he coming back? why are the days so long?
is he having fun now? or is he missing me badly?
i called him almost everyday, just to make sure nothing happens to him.
you may think tht its a waste of money,
but as long as he hangs up or picks up,
i felt relief, because i know he's save with his family.
today's is he's mum's birthday,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! (:
hope she'll like the present tht we bought for her.
4 more days he'll be back,
i'm counting down! ;DDD
我超想念你宝贝！<3

17-25

airport

its the second day without him in singapore.
went to sent him off at airport yesterday afternoon.
and his parents and relatives were very hilarious (:
i followed as they went to have their lunch at the airport.
we also took pictures ;D
his small sister was very funny, i had a great time playing with her (:
when time is up, all of them went into the check-in point one by one.
his father told me tht 9 days will pass very fast de,
i just smiled and laugh,
even though my heart is as sour as the lemon ):
he gave me a very warm and long hug, which make me feel like 9 days will be long.
as they went in to shop, i stood outside watching them.
my tears began to flow out, i sudden feeling tht i missed him alot.
and there he turned back,
giving me a last wave and told me to go home and takecare of myself.
i showed him a sign okkay and turned back to walk away.
bodui (: :
i oso promise baby i'll takecare myself de.
rmb dont let anyone bully you when i'm not around ok?
i'll miss you badly too de :(
9days will pass just like a blink of an eye de.
so must wait for mi come bak k?
hope you'll feel comfortable after tt hug just now :)
i'm goin in le.
byebye wode xingan darling! iloveyou! hughug <3 le ="">
with tht, he flew off and i'm standing in the airport, crying inside my heart.

miss you












6 more days and he'll be flying to taiwan, taipei and tainan.
i started to miss him even before he can step into the plane..
yearning for him nowadays. i've this feeling tht i may lose him shortly,
maybe its due to the trip tht his going in afew days lata.
i dont know, this feeling makes my heart sour.
i want him for eternity, endless time will spent together,
jubilant moments will remember for the rest for our lives.
this will be a nine-day trip, my gosh.
just hope tht everything will be fine, (and i wont injured myself again) :x!
fortang's tight schedule keeps me very busy until i didint have time to breathe.
how am i gonna settle down for my o level peparations?
gotta think of some way to balance both..
so tired down with both things, my goodness..
reading my last book review was like sitting on the bullet train,
i had to rush in order to do my math lata.
and my art, which i previously mentioned, is impossible..
gonna meet baby lata, i'm so happy ;D
muacks!x3

busy

i'm just so busy to post anything or even go on to my com
so sad...
my baby's gonna fly to taiwan next week,
for 9 days!
OMGGGG
its like the same as last year ):
finishing my last book review,
but haven complete my math..
as for my art, one word:
DIE D;






我很想你 ):

last day of school

last day of school was nothing much,

but just tht i'm very sad bout something happened,

which really cant make me utter a single word.

things will change next year,

just hope tht everything will be fine (:

i've been promoted to sec 4e next year (:

going 1 year ^^

发觉...

i've come to realised,
tht all the while, it was me who is thinking too much.
i know these days i had been torturing you.
i'm sincerely sorry.
i was not understanding enough,
i know you've your o levels coming soon,
but here i still provoked you, make you angry, make your mood bad.
i felt like i'm a witch in your heart.
and this feeling is super bad..
i'm sorry baby T.T
i hope you can forgive me for my foolish act.
i realised my mistakes already,
please dont be angry with my alright?
对不起！
原谅我好吗？
小公主知道错了。

joben

true words

没想到你长得那么快，都已经比我想象中的还快。
我不知道是不是因为，我们很少见面，所以你才会有这种反应。
起初，我还是那么的关心你，想念着你，
很想和你见面。
但现在的你真想让我，放弃。
没见面就算了， 可是你必须要这样做吗？
你知道你这样做，只会让我越来越心痛，越来越不喜欢你。
谁不想和他心爱的人每天都能在一起？
谁不想和他心爱的人每天见面？
谁不想和他心爱的人开开心心的？
我也想啊。可是我有对你不好吗？
我有没有作过对不起你的事？
你为何要这样对带我？
原本以为，你会和其他的男生不一样，
现在我懂了，原来每个男生都是一样。
我讲了那番话，你真的听到了吗？
希望如此吧。
以前，你是真的很关心我，我也可以感觉到。
但现在，我被送去医院了，
不但你没关心我，还以为没什么。
我不知道你有没有这样想，但这是你给我的感觉。
天啊，你知道我有多么的心碎吗？
也许，你从来不知道，也不了解我的感受。
我希望我们可以像以前那样，开开心心的，很幸福的。
你可以做到吗？
失去了你，就像失去了我。
可以回来我的身边好吗？

last paper

end









finally my last paper had finished ;D
i can relax now.
well, nothing to post about also,
recently don't feel like posting anything,
so thts it (:


我觉得我们已经长大了<3

fail fail fail

EOY






finally cleared all papers except for one more, which is next monday.
i really did badly, that's all i can say.
i tried hard but it's not enough.
i really disappoint alot of people.
what's there to say when everything is over?
its just really too late..
too late..

english oral

monkey and bunny

pictures for today.
well well well,
today is my english oral le,
the topic was okkay okkay (:
only for the picture part thingy,
i always fail to speak properly whenever it comes to picture ):
i don't know why.
i wanted to say alot of things for the conversation part,
but my english teacher keep saying okkay that's all -.-
wth wth...
anyway, just came back from jurong point.
went window shopping with candy and jenny ;D
saw lots of things which i wanted to buy, but i can't.
saddies T.T
candy gave me ALOT of sweets man!
i can really eat till my teeth drop! :x
hahahahahahaha
its good to have her back from vietnam (:
and and and,
i'm gonna change to umlimited sms next month!
can't wait! ;DD

stressed these few days,
i really need your shoulder to lean on ):

junwei's farewell party

farewell party








yesterday,
went out with my sis in the afternoon,
meet ziting and we headed off to chinatown to meet baby the rest of my friends.
went to this 10 dollar ktv club for k session,
had a pretty fun time there,
sometime there were funny things happen in there (:
we sang and sang and sang and sang.....................
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we sang until around 7, then went down to meet my mummy,
and we went for dinner at roma's deli
spaghetti **thumps up!**
after that, went to have some desserts, bought presents for another friend,
and then we went homeeee~



really had a great day with you baby,
iloveyou! <3

love doing math (:

holiday









finally the on week holiday is here,
but i bet it'll be a short one ):
english oral will be on the second day when school reopens,
see how time fly past so fast!
i've a feeling that i'll drop to NA next year.
i don't know why, i just have this feeling.
i failed my math last mid year examination,
i guess it will be the same either this year end.
if i can just pass my math, then i'll be save from NA.
oh god, please help me,
i really want to pass my math ):
went to have geography lesson in school,
tired tired tired..
i have a urge to practice my math recently.
maybe its a good sign ;D



imissyou baby,
but i'm jealous and angry..

tagboard

THERE'S SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY

TAGBOARD!

I KNOW THE WAY TO TAG IT,

BUT IT'S HARD FOR ME TO TEACH ):

SO FIND YOUR WAYS TO TAG ME BA.

IT STILL CAN BE TAGGED (:

3 more days

thursday

took this yesterday (:

rainy days recently this morning, makes me feel likr sleeping only -.-

super tired in class ):

yesterday:

went to dance as usual,

was chatting happily with this group of friends,

thn this ahneh spoiled our mood.

to the ahnehs out there:

dont think that you all sec 2 big okkay,

keep staring at people like no need money one hor.

please la, so black already still draw black makeup on your face!

next time just buy you a white eyeliner and white lipstick luh,

like that all your friends also follow you, then you big already la.

laughs.

i just dont like your face man, fringe so long cover your face,

then always talk to your friends, dont wanna dance,

you think dace room is your house ar? dont want dance then dont dance.

its your fault that your makeup is so obvious okkay,

dont keep pushing the blame to other people.

you think we are bullying you? dont think so much la,

we just dont like you thats all.

you and your friends did all these to made us keep saying,

knn cb. super laolan!

monkey

stolen..

aha, these photos were taken from candy,
wonder why my hair looks like this?
all these works was done by my dear candy ;D
i got tricked by her words and she tied my hair into this!
i was like, omg? can i let it down now?
people give those unusual faces to me,
i was like, so embarrassed! hahahas
lessons were tiring today, cause we got pe in the morning.
focused test this friday, scared ):
need to study le.




imissyou darling <3
when will your hands be held on mine?

vampire kisses

vampire

super tired this morning,

i know, its the beginning of the week.

went school rather late today.

the whole day i was reading my storybooks.

i really like this book vampire kisses.

can't wait to know the ending!

actually nothing happen today,

lessons wee normal, nothing happen much.

i just can't let go of my storybook today (:

tired











today went school as usual,
bio was first, can't stand that teacher.
after that was english, finished compre (:
after that was math, mrchen had something on,
so its two perids free (:
so total i have five periods free this morning before recess ;D
stayed in class during recess, cause i don't feel like going down.
after recess was ss,
learnt about the conflict between northern lreland thingy,
the catholics and the protestants.
its abit confusing but i just continued to listen.
laugh laugh and play play with candy in the class (: hoho..
after ss was chem,
learnt about the groups in the periodic table,
misslow let us watch a video about the alkali stuffs.
this is what i learnt today: never mix alkali with water
*wink*
hahas, clever ba?
not because i'm clever, its because today's lessons are easy :x
opps!
after chem went for chinese lesson.
our teacher worry for our o level chinese paper next year,
cause she said that the next year's o level paper will not be easy as we thought,
which means its will be a diffcult one, duh..
after school, saw candy at e4,
went up to talk to her, but didnt realised she was going away from misstan.
then in the end, she needed to go back to class again.
i went in to help her to go off earlier,
instead she scolded us back, wtf.
and... (:
anways, i'm sorry monkey! i'm really sorry, next time i will give you something de (:
hugs (:

truth











finally, i thinked through already..
i shouldn't be playing anymore,
EOY is coming, and this time will be the last chance for me whether to stay or drop.
so i shouldn't be playing now.
from today onwards, i will be mugging very hard for this EOY exams.
jiayous joanne (:








to my boy:
its sad to say that my heart aches alot when you said that.
but you're right, i shouldnt have think it that way.
and now i understand why,
all the while i have been bluffing myself.
thanks for waking me up baby, i know what to do already.
don't worry, i'll try my very best to do well in everything,
i won't disappoint you.
maybe i will forget about you one day,
but i will always remind myself about you,
and i will put you in my heart at all times.
darling, please do well in your o level alright? jiayous (:
iloveyou! muacks!x3 hugs..




to my friend here:
i appreciate the days that we spent together,
i really miss that.
but i'm sorry to say that i can't turn back the clock.
lots of memories had stored in my mind.
i think money can't solve the problem.
even if i did returned, you will not come back to me.
and i guess.... hmmm, you should know ba.
so i wish you all the best in everything,
goodluck for your o level next year.
you must really study hard okkay? please don't disappoint your friends and families.
i can tell you it will be a difficult year next year,
so study hard alright? jiayous (:

cires cries cries..










i want your comfort,
i want your smile,
i want your hugs,
i want your hands,
i want your love,
i want your misses.


oh, i miss your hands,
i miss your hugs,
i miss your love,
i miss your misses,
i miss your comfort,
i miss your smile,
i miss those days,
i miss lunch with you,
i miss talking with you,
i miss your words,
imissyou.






you are my first piority, how about yours?

speaks nothing..

omg, i really cannot wait for picnik to upload for me,
there are still many pictures to upload yet! argh!
i stil need to send these to ziting-.-
today lesson as usual, went school with xingxuan.
had bio lesson first,
i was very busy filing up all my bio worksheets,
thn ms tan let us see the lungs video, disgusting..
after tht was english,
chionged my compo in one period (:
after tht was math, i didnt pay attention to teacher,
i was talking with candy (:
i dont know why, everytime i talk to her, i will always laugh,
maybe she likes to joke with me. hahas.
talking to her really makes me feel relaxed..
after tht went for recess,
i didnt have money to eat.
helped to buy harshbrowns for them, only left six,
so each of them only took one.
i thought candy's gonna take for herself, but little did i realised,
she eventually took it for me.
i really dont wanna take it, but she insisted me eating.
i didnt pay or tht, next time must return her money le (:
thanks candy! ;D
after tht was ss, ms chan was rather angry and told us to stay back on monday..
after ss was chemistry.
went to chem lab for pratical lesson.
the class seems not interested to do the practical, and ms low started to cry..
i dont know wht happen, but looks like she's upset bout something..
after tht was chinese lesson,
after tht i went home.



nothing much happen recently,
i dont know why i never speak in class..
i cant get any mood in the class. hais.
i dont know why.....
ohfuck.

searching..










went msia last weekend,
took pictures (:
its a chior camp, i really enjoyed it, and i learnt alot of things.
tht two to three days were really really tired.
i only slept 9 hours for two days.
suppose we were going timesquare,
but in the end, due to something happen, we cant go,
saddies T.T
andandand, tht (sicko) keep following us during the trip to msia
and BACK to singapore, ARGH!
its so irritating can??
and (sicko) did somethings tht makes him thinks tht he's doing the right thing,
but in fact, he's wrong!
oh wtf, pls get a life out there, we dont need ur help (please)
nobody is asking you and yet ur big mouth keep saying and saying,
just like ur big head.
our journey is totally a waste with you around.
and dont think i dont know tht you did something to make (her) go into msia,
you pleased her mum, you beg the zhuzhang,
thn they let her go msia with us,
but in the end, she made herself injured during the first day. stupid
thn. there are two person, who is really a problematic people.
i dont wanna say out...





recently nothing happen also,
im too tired to post anything.
really really really tired.....
year end exams are coming, all i just wanna do is to study,
i dont wanna care bout other things tht will affect my studies.
maybe, i'll think of a way to solve something ba....
my mum's friends look at my face,
they were shocked to see my face pale.
i also dont know why, i only know i'm super tired of everything.

damn you.










i really had enough of you.
if you agree us to be together, thn just tell me,
dont gimme those kind of dont know excuses, i dont like it, really felt irritated.
last time you used to not care bout our chit chatting and stuffs like this,
but these days, you are like, really giving me tht god damn attitude.
whatever i do, you dont like,
right or wrong, you also scold me.
thn when i never speak, you'll just accused it.
its like fucking angry can?
and please, dont control me like i'm an animal,
even animals have their own freedom.
but you?
you didnt give me a single freedom at all.
wht time i come home, wht time i need to reach ur destination,
wht time i sleep, wht time i doing my housework,
wht time i finish homework, wht time i bathe,
how much i spent, who am i talking to the person on the phone,
wht clothes i wear, wht things i bring,
wht phones i want, wht bag i want, even wht shampoo i want,
you always doesnt give me a chance or a choice to choose,
it's always YOU who helped me to choose and to decide.
i want my own decision can?
sometimes i really dont need you to decide for me, i'll do it myself,
but you? you didn't care.
and why must you let an outsider to control your mind?
who is (name) ?
he's just nothing alright! you dont have the rights to listen to him.
you never care for my feelings, you always did wht you like.
i'm tired tht night, you still follow them to eat supper. wht the fuck!
and i can concentrate in class the next day.
'a person eats to live'
everone needs food to survive,
you didnt give me money to eat,
and i needed to wait until 6 plus thn i can eat my dinner.
imagine, i only have dinner everyday??
is you force me to borrow money from friends to eat one alright?
you cant blame me.
now tht you care for sis so much, thn i just let you care!
i dont give a damn!
i just hate you, hate you, hate you to the core!
fuck off of my life! i dont want you!!!!

racial harmony day








today is racial harmony day and our school wanted us to wear ethnic costumes.
so we wore it today.
i wore the SIA costume and wondered if i had wore the wrong one,
people were all looking at me and friends we saying bout me.
its very okkay, i dont like people looking at me in different way,
maybe its because of my costume -.-
had jokes out of it in my class, aidil keep saying tht sentence..
hahas.
first two period was bout the RHD presentation,
only candy's group did the slides.
candy wore her kimono, which was very nice ;D (i always wished to wear) :x
xingxuan didnt wear costumes, but she also had SIA costume.
chemistry was like freaking boring,
miss low doesnt know how to teach, which made us fell asleep as the result.
and i really hate her lesson..
recess was far more embarrassing than i expected,
wherever i went, people looked at me,
some even shouted 'SIA girl' =.=
i was totally paisei okkay?
one person came to me with a camera and asked whether will i have a photo with him ;D
cute uh
thn soon, my dance seniors queued up to take picture with this 'SIA girl'
i'm speechless all the way man..
walked back from canteen, had math lesson,
i made fun of my math teacher.
i asked him to sit down as we are gonna take off soon (HAHA!)
he wanted to hit me leh (:
after math was bio lesson in the lab.
took pictures in the bio lab, will upload it the next time(:
after tht went for chinese lesson.
school ended but i dont dare to walk out of the school,
cause people will say bout my costume again.
but i just went out.
the first step, already one people was saying bout 'SIA girl'
(RAH!!!)
i was thinking, can you stop saying bout my costume??
hah,
but now i had reached home, no one will say me le ;D

last saturday..











went to marina bay to look for my sis,
when we saw her, she was taller than usual, omg.
thn after seeing her,
went to walkwalk with baby <3 took few photos, will upload the next time. had the whole day together, yay! ;D thn at night, went for qingkouban at th, after tht, went home (:







i dont have the time to blog now, sorry ):

tiredtired..










woke up at the usual time,
felt super sleepy when i woke up, felt like going back to bed and sleep longer.
went school, chinese first,
had tingxie (i forgot to bring back my book and learn)
but i was managed to got one wrong :x
hahahas
next went back to class, had our math period,
i wasnt paying attention to mr chen
sin rule is very difficult to do, i dont like it -.-
my mum said tht she will be hiring a tuition teacher to teach me,
but i told her i only need chem and bio tuition,
cause i had already got 3 person teaching me math (:
oh, wht the hell am i thinking man, i eventually told my mum not to give me math tuition?
laughs.
since i dont want any math tuition, thn i must study hard and pay attention in class le..
during recess, saw something tht is unbelievable (:
and i find it funny.
candy cant finish her food and she always ask me to help her eat,
hahas! though i'm not her rubbish, but i just helped her to finish her food.
candy: next time if you think you cant finish your food, just dont buy so much alright??
hahas, save money ;D
after recess, was art, designed our box,
singling and me cant think of anything so we just drew anything.
had a fun time with mr hakim,
telling him cold jokes and lame ones ;D
hahahas, its proven tht he has gaps between us cause he doesnt know the answers.
we also gossip among ourselves..
thn we saw how candy demostrate for us the turning wheel,
looks fun and i felt like trying.
chenfei kept making noises, which made us laugh.
after art, went back to class to have english lesson,
did nothing but just chatting (:
candy told me bout those geisha and stuffs like tht.
after school, went home.


felt so tired, feel like going to sleep,
but still have lots of homework to do ):
ttx, i will show to you one alright? (:
hehes.
i have the sudden feeling tht i miss him alot,
tml will be meeting him le, so happy (:
iloveyou baby <3 makmak

unwell










last saturday,
went to tg for jcg practise.
we were all discussing bout the trip to msia this august.
i'm looking forward to it (:
sang 'small talk',
though i like the song,
but it seems like we are still not to tht standard,
i dont know why,
my feelings tells me so.
but i hope we wont sing this during msia :x
went to school today,
saw ttx and her boyfriend on my way to school (:
went to class, had our temperature taking,
we wrote compo during english lesson,
i was rather tired, my eyes were closing -.-
maybe its because yesterday i slept late
due to somethings i heard and was displeased...
after tht, went for chinese.
i really inspire my lin laoshi alot, i dont know why.
she gave me a kind of feeling tht is linked in 'tao', who knows.. (:
i enjoyed her lessons whenever chinese period came.
after tht went for recess,
was feeling super uncomfortable in my stomach ):
after recess,
ms tan called us to present a powerpoint presentation bout racial harmony,
(i dont want!)
ss tml, good thing tht i had finish her homework,
if not she'll ask me to stay back tml.
had a fun time playing clay in the art room,
got used to those clay in our hands, though i hate it.
after tht went home and rest!
my stomach really hurts D;


tml there will be a special night at tg,
i'm going to perform there, so do him (:
loves <3

im back










i know this blog is dead for many times (:
but now im free to go my blog le, happy ;D
btw, tag to be linked yeah??
cause i already lost all my links -.-



i think of you everyday, do you?
i love you even more everyday, do you?

so long..










so long since i post.
hmmm, something happen,
thats why i didnt post anything.
and im sorry that i lost all the links,
tag to be link yeah??
midyear exams are all over,
yay ;D


im sorry baby, kept quarreling with you these days,
im sorry, pls dont take it to ur heart okkay??
iloveyou <3

happy 15 birthday sweetheart!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TTX!

may all ur wishes come true.

and hope you will like my present (:

1 year older le wor, must be mature le okkay??

hahas, cannot be like the past le.

and also must study hard for this year yeah??

jiayous!

thanks for everything my friend,

iloveyou very very much.

lastlong with me and ni de jeremy :x

hahas.

sweetheart, ttx, xuanxuan, kinderlover,

twinsoul, xiaoxigua, (L)xx, xingxuan ;D

saturday:

bought this at toapayoh central,

it taste super niceee!

nothing much happen.

hahas. went to tg for ly at night with jcg people.

after tht, went home with ziting, mei and yingle.

look at my retard sis -.-

sunday:

went for bxb in the morning,

jdy cooked pasta specially for us,

thanks!

its delicious ;D

after tht, went back home and got prepared,

meet baby and we went to a friend's house

and taste their Myanmar dishes,

i really like their food, especially the rosted peanut with tea leaves.

although its kinda weird when you first put it into ur mouth,

but soon, you will like the taste (:

niceee.

after tht, celebrated her son's birthday,

and we went home.

her son, cute right??

me and baby ;D

look, someone is greedy..

sweets ;DDD