went to school as normal today.
two things that shocked me.
i failed math and chinese.
this is the first time i failed my chinese, i cant believe it.
math was my focus test, i got
10/40
it was like, 1/4 of the full marks.
i promised my mum and him to pass my math this time,
but i didnt make it.
im such a disappointment to them.
i dont understand why i cant pass my math,
everytime without fail, i will fail my math paper.
whywhywhy?!
i really feel like crying now,
if that was my o level paper, how am i gonna make it to poly??
i guess not even i single poly wants me in thier school.
including republic.
i tried so hard, but i got all wrong, but the answers were so short, straightforward.
and i cant even get a single mark for it.
what's happening to me? is my brain not working?
or isit like what ppl had said, that im stupid?
and i'm really trying hard to score well,
and yet there are ppl insulting me bout my grades.
cant i dropped to e5?? so what if my previous class was e2??
does that concerns bout eu?? will i affect ur future??
no right??
then just fuck off from my side! bastard!
everyday the moment eu see me, eu will insult me.
hey, i am also a human, i have feelings too.
dont think that everytime eu say me, i wont get hurt,
but deep inside, it really hurts alot.
so what if eu promoted to a higher class than me??
does that concerns me?? no.
i dont even give a damn for eu but eu just keep rubbing salt on my wounds.
does that make eu happy?? if yes,
then just continue.
i have nothing to say.
chinese was also a disappointment to me.
i cant believe i got 47 for my chinese.
i really have nothing to say.
even my best subject will fail,
how can i imagine what will happen to my o level results?
i really dont dare to think.
all i want to do now is just to cry.
even singing or taking pics with me is just so difficult,
but singing and taking pics with (name) is so fun for eu.
but it cant be blame,
as 1 year plus friendship cant be compared to a primary school friendship.
silly pics that i took with xuanxuan during the lt period.
