damn you.










i really had enough of you.
if you agree us to be together, thn just tell me,
dont gimme those kind of dont know excuses, i dont like it, really felt irritated.
last time you used to not care bout our chit chatting and stuffs like this,
but these days, you are like, really giving me tht god damn attitude.
whatever i do, you dont like,
right or wrong, you also scold me.
thn when i never speak, you'll just accused it.
its like fucking angry can?
and please, dont control me like i'm an animal,
even animals have their own freedom.
but you?
you didnt give me a single freedom at all.
wht time i come home, wht time i need to reach ur destination,
wht time i sleep, wht time i doing my housework,
wht time i finish homework, wht time i bathe,
how much i spent, who am i talking to the person on the phone,
wht clothes i wear, wht things i bring,
wht phones i want, wht bag i want, even wht shampoo i want,
you always doesnt give me a chance or a choice to choose,
it's always YOU who helped me to choose and to decide.
i want my own decision can?
sometimes i really dont need you to decide for me, i'll do it myself,
but you? you didn't care.
and why must you let an outsider to control your mind?
who is (name) ?
he's just nothing alright! you dont have the rights to listen to him.
you never care for my feelings, you always did wht you like.
i'm tired tht night, you still follow them to eat supper. wht the fuck!
and i can concentrate in class the next day.
'a person eats to live'
everone needs food to survive,
you didnt give me money to eat,
and i needed to wait until 6 plus thn i can eat my dinner.
imagine, i only have dinner everyday??
is you force me to borrow money from friends to eat one alright?
you cant blame me.
now tht you care for sis so much, thn i just let you care!
i dont give a damn!
i just hate you, hate you, hate you to the core!
fuck off of my life! i dont want you!!!!

racial harmony day








today is racial harmony day and our school wanted us to wear ethnic costumes.
so we wore it today.
i wore the SIA costume and wondered if i had wore the wrong one,
people were all looking at me and friends we saying bout me.
its very okkay, i dont like people looking at me in different way,
maybe its because of my costume -.-
had jokes out of it in my class, aidil keep saying tht sentence..
hahas.
first two period was bout the RHD presentation,
only candy's group did the slides.
candy wore her kimono, which was very nice ;D (i always wished to wear) :x
xingxuan didnt wear costumes, but she also had SIA costume.
chemistry was like freaking boring,
miss low doesnt know how to teach, which made us fell asleep as the result.
and i really hate her lesson..
recess was far more embarrassing than i expected,
wherever i went, people looked at me,
some even shouted 'SIA girl' =.=
i was totally paisei okkay?
one person came to me with a camera and asked whether will i have a photo with him ;D
cute uh
thn soon, my dance seniors queued up to take picture with this 'SIA girl'
i'm speechless all the way man..
walked back from canteen, had math lesson,
i made fun of my math teacher.
i asked him to sit down as we are gonna take off soon (HAHA!)
he wanted to hit me leh (:
after math was bio lesson in the lab.
took pictures in the bio lab, will upload it the next time(:
after tht went for chinese lesson.
school ended but i dont dare to walk out of the school,
cause people will say bout my costume again.
but i just went out.
the first step, already one people was saying bout 'SIA girl'
(RAH!!!)
i was thinking, can you stop saying bout my costume??
hah,
but now i had reached home, no one will say me le ;D

last saturday..











went to marina bay to look for my sis,
when we saw her, she was taller than usual, omg.
thn after seeing her,
went to walkwalk with baby <3 took few photos, will upload the next time. had the whole day together, yay! ;D thn at night, went for qingkouban at th, after tht, went home (:







i dont have the time to blog now, sorry ):

tiredtired..










woke up at the usual time,
felt super sleepy when i woke up, felt like going back to bed and sleep longer.
went school, chinese first,
had tingxie (i forgot to bring back my book and learn)
but i was managed to got one wrong :x
hahahas
next went back to class, had our math period,
i wasnt paying attention to mr chen
sin rule is very difficult to do, i dont like it -.-
my mum said tht she will be hiring a tuition teacher to teach me,
but i told her i only need chem and bio tuition,
cause i had already got 3 person teaching me math (:
oh, wht the hell am i thinking man, i eventually told my mum not to give me math tuition?
laughs.
since i dont want any math tuition, thn i must study hard and pay attention in class le..
during recess, saw something tht is unbelievable (:
and i find it funny.
candy cant finish her food and she always ask me to help her eat,
hahas! though i'm not her rubbish, but i just helped her to finish her food.
candy: next time if you think you cant finish your food, just dont buy so much alright??
hahas, save money ;D
after recess, was art, designed our box,
singling and me cant think of anything so we just drew anything.
had a fun time with mr hakim,
telling him cold jokes and lame ones ;D
hahahas, its proven tht he has gaps between us cause he doesnt know the answers.
we also gossip among ourselves..
thn we saw how candy demostrate for us the turning wheel,
looks fun and i felt like trying.
chenfei kept making noises, which made us laugh.
after art, went back to class to have english lesson,
did nothing but just chatting (:
candy told me bout those geisha and stuffs like tht.
after school, went home.


felt so tired, feel like going to sleep,
but still have lots of homework to do ):
ttx, i will show to you one alright? (:
hehes.
i have the sudden feeling tht i miss him alot,
tml will be meeting him le, so happy (:
iloveyou baby <3 makmak

unwell










last saturday,
went to tg for jcg practise.
we were all discussing bout the trip to msia this august.
i'm looking forward to it (:
sang 'small talk',
though i like the song,
but it seems like we are still not to tht standard,
i dont know why,
my feelings tells me so.
but i hope we wont sing this during msia :x
went to school today,
saw ttx and her boyfriend on my way to school (:
went to class, had our temperature taking,
we wrote compo during english lesson,
i was rather tired, my eyes were closing -.-
maybe its because yesterday i slept late
due to somethings i heard and was displeased...
after tht, went for chinese.
i really inspire my lin laoshi alot, i dont know why.
she gave me a kind of feeling tht is linked in 'tao', who knows.. (:
i enjoyed her lessons whenever chinese period came.
after tht went for recess,
was feeling super uncomfortable in my stomach ):
after recess,
ms tan called us to present a powerpoint presentation bout racial harmony,
(i dont want!)
ss tml, good thing tht i had finish her homework,
if not she'll ask me to stay back tml.
had a fun time playing clay in the art room,
got used to those clay in our hands, though i hate it.
after tht went home and rest!
my stomach really hurts D;


tml there will be a special night at tg,
i'm going to perform there, so do him (:
loves <3

im back










i know this blog is dead for many times (:
but now im free to go my blog le, happy ;D
btw, tag to be linked yeah??
cause i already lost all my links -.-



i think of you everyday, do you?
i love you even more everyday, do you?